The day that I stopped finding everything about you so damn mesmerizing

Your scars don’t mean anything to me anymore

It was a new day. Being techincal of course because it was exactly 1:17 AM when your eyes stopped sparkling so bright to me. There was no spectacular event that brought this to my attention. It was a regular night. Often something comes to my mind, flickers, and then shuts off. The thought is a day dream of being treated correctly. It feels like such a distant fantasy that someone could really care for me as much as I care for people.

 

@ 1:12 AM I realized your hands no longer radiate warm colors like burnt orange because they never held mine with passion to brand your fingerprints into mine.

@ 1:13 AM I discovered your freckles and scars weren’t an outline to a puzzle. They were just insignificant dots.

@ 1:14 AM I noticed your cheeks weren’t faintly pink from non-stop giggling because of how silly we could be with each other.

@ 1:15 AM I became aware that your jaw never dropped in awe as if you were curious of how someone could be so beautiful.

@ 1:16 AM I figured out your nails were never slightly overgrown because you spent too much time with me that you lost touch of reality.

@ 1:17 AM I made sense of why your eyes became so dim to me. It’s because I looked in the mirror and I found that my hands radiated warmth. My freckles and scars told stories that one day I could share with someone. My cheeks were always pink I always find a reason to laugh. My jaw dropped everyday because I look around and see how beautiful this chaotic world is. My nails were always overgrown because there are always more important issues at bay. In that moment, my eyes sparkled because I had to fall in love with myself to fall out of love with you.

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